Breaking expectations

I love breaking people's expectations about me. I know I can look a certain way. If I'm working, I look quite professional. I work in a relaxed place, so I look bit too secretary at times. On my free time, I tend to look bit like a vampire queen. One of my exes actually didn't know I dressed that way normally, and got bit of a surprise. When we dated, I wore pretty normal clothes because of weather and he saw me in my natural look after we had broken up. That was fun!

People often assume I'm goth. I'm not. I think vampire is more accurate. I wear often black clothes. I like the colour and I tend to prefer bit unusual cuts as well. I do wear purple as well. Some people expect me to be all angsty and moody because I wear unusual black clothes, and then they get happy, easily excited and hyperactive me! Also black looks good on me!

And I also tend to favour very feminine style. If at all possible, I will wear a skirt! And tops to fit womanly curves. I look pretty feminine. Today I managed to shock people by telling I can fix a bike tire. Seriously. I can even change car tire if I have all the equipment. It's not like it's that hard! And then I turn on my music. I don't really know how this surprises people, because of the goth look, but I listen to heavy music. Right now Disturbed is my choice, especially in the mornings, and other times I listen to bands like Sonata Arctica. Especially at work, people get really shocked when it's my turn to choose music...

And it's fun when people realise I'm a big nerd! I definetly don't look like one. I play board games, watch scifi movies and tv-shows, larp, rpg. Only thing I don't know much is comics and that's from lack of opportunity.

I'M ALIVE!!

Yeah, it's been a while. I was in a surgery about two months ago and I haven't been able to write. Well, I was able physically but not mentally. My ADHD got even worse with the recuperation. It was a big surgery and I still don't feel normal. I haven't felt well enough even to take my ADHD meds. And my concentration has gone from bad to worse. And of course this all happened at the same time as several entrance exams to universities and normal exams from my current major.. I have started to feel the "normal" hyperactivity. My muscles keep itching all the time. Not as bad as it used to be but getting there. I've gained weight without it. Usually I have to keep moving alot during the day to keep it away but now not so much. I've felt strong enough to start excercising for fun. After the surgery all my other health issues, like Diabetes t1 and hypothyroidism been strange as well. Now they have started to settle as well. But the weird thing was that I couldn't take Concerta. I would stay up all night if I did. And I took it at a normal time as before but it worked really weird. I didn't understand it at first but after the second sleepless night, I took the hint. I took 2 pills on the second week after surgery and it did work really well. Small dose felt like I*d taken 3 pills once.. Gotta listen to the body! It will tell you what is right. It's been telling me to eat healtier as well. I've been craving mandarins which is weird. Good but still weird.

Anyway, I just wanted to write to tell I*m still alive. Watching Captain America, first Avenger, with a very furry friend. Who is shedding.. Just reminds me that if I ever get a dog of my own, I need to get one with black hair! almost all my clothes are black and with white/gold hair, it stands out! But animal therapy works! I feel lessed stressed even though I've got too many lines to remember and exams coming up!

Oh yeah, I have a complaint! 3D and high speed cameras! They do not combine well!! I don't get travel sickness easy, UNLESS it's 3D movie! I just saw Winter Solder in theatres and the hollywood scenes (fight and/or explotions) don't work well in the high speed camera. They shoot more frames in a minute than normal and it just looks very messy! I couldn't really figure out which was whose hand and what was going some of the time because the screen was just so messy! I'm good now, I've been waiting to say that for a week now!

Oh yeah me!

I just realised I could write something about me.. I am from Finland, born and raised. Eastern Finland to be accurate. I've travelled some, in particular Canada, France and Britain. I'm uncurable Anglophile, sorry!

I'm a nerd, I love scifi. I play some games on PC but my concentration doesn't really cut for playing them. I tend to get mad at the game pretty fast even though I normally almost never get angry. I do like playing car and other simulator games, and Skyrim. But more on the scifi stuff. I am a HUGE Stargate fan although I'll go for anything spacey and techy. My favourite character from Marvel is Iron Man. I love that he's flawed. And this is the reason why I like Loki as a character. I like complex characters. I actually love Snape as well since we don't know much anything about him and it keeps changing throughout the books. Yeah I'm a Harry Potter fan. I don't want to call myself Potterhead since I'm Slytherin. Here is the evidence from last Halloween! Come April I'll propably post something about Stargate Convention.

Right now I am studying English language and culture in University of Eastern Finland. I minor in cultural anthropology. Most of my free time goes into amateur theatre. I sing for fun and I can hold my note. But can't read them. I find it weird. I can read from mid C to first high C but beyond that I'm lost. I've been trying to learn for years. And theoretically I can read the rythm but in practise, not happening!!

I've got several health problems main ones being Diabetes type 1, hypothyroidism and ADHD. At some point, I will post somewhat angry post about diabetes. They tend to happen when ignorant people confuse it with type 2 or forget type 1 excists. I wish it didn't but it does and we have to live with it.

I apologise for the missing articles. I'm getting a bit better with them!! And some of my posts might be a bit confusing since my logic and coherence are a bit.. yeah well.. Oh look, a squirrel!!